Sunday, October 25 {10:31 pm}
happy anniversary my dear! (:
since after dear came back, he really accompanied mi for the past few days! really happy. its like. satisfied with the accompaniment to cover back the 2weeks of sailing. and we really make full use of our time keep going out. early morning go out, late night den go home. yesterday night, we even went to east coast park till like 1am. thinking of 1year ago, we were there together attending a bbq and got together. but in fact, can consider tat we are already together. just that we don't know the exact date so we put it as 25th oct lor. funny hor.
dear. thank you for being my dear. thank you for being by my side. thank you for being my other half. dear i love u. (:
Wednesday, October 21 {10:51 pm}
day 12 without dear.
i'm blogging just like 2persons from a drama serial writing their days without their loved one. and my loved one i'm blogging about is dear. feeling really lousy now. no words can express my feelings right now, especially when i don't even know how to express myself. perhaps the way i speak and the words i use are incorrect. so no one is able to understand how i feel because i myself don't even know how to explain it in the right way!
i don't know why i love keeping quiet when i'm down. i don't talk, yet all the thoughts are running through my mind non stop. so when u ask mi to speak up, i don't know how to start and where to start with. i scared when i speak, what i say is totally different from my thoughts. it has always been lidat.
confused. mind in a whirl.
1 more day to seeing dear i hope.
Tuesday, October 20 {11:14 pm}
day 11 without dear.
rushing through codes today. now still redesigning, hoping to make it even more simpler when i code further. thanks to wuenyin for sending mi her team codes. and now BT is trying to explain to mi. really need to thank them for their help! i now trying to get out of a stupid error. sians. tmr early in the morning meet advisor. want to show her the way i code donno can anot. but now it seems like i gotta show her another day.
today only go to school. nothing else besides coding at home.
2 more days to dear coming back! (:
Monday, October 19 {11:11 pm}
day 10 without dear.
wow. its 10days without seeing dear already. and i really miss him! he's coming back soon. real soon. yes. i've been having headaches about my fyp. cant sleep! all i think is dear and fyp. i donno how to continue doing my fyp! whatever faci wants us to do, we all stuck. i nid dear to pei mi and massage my back. den when he busy, he work i help him massage his back. ):
now still working on fyp. din go anywhere today except for school. tmr school too.
3 more days to dear coming back! (:
Sunday, October 18 {11:06 pm}
day 9 without dear.
dear called mi and sent mi a good nite sms just now! superb happy. thought after he left tioman and go back ship, he will not have reception to contact mi. but i really hear his voice just now! just gotta tahan few more days den he will be back le. yippee.
had dinner buffet wit junhao, weishi, cpc, sandra and yanling. so long never meet up with rpws peeps le. so happy to see them again. haha. eat till full full den sent sandra home before i drive go shop.
back to school tmr! sians. i just got a C last week. thanks to the tough rj so i anyhow whack.
4 more days to dear coming back. ):
Saturday, October 17 {11:07 pm}
day 8 without dear.
today go shop cos too bored. so afternoon go shop till close liao den come home. today woke up super late, cos yesterday eat too full cant sleep le. din eat as much as before, stomach bloated very fast. perhaps stomach getting smaller? weighed myself a few days ago. 44kg. my aunt also say i am thinner. donno why.
dear contacted mi the whole of today. he went tioman island walk walk. bought a gift for mi but i donno wats tat cos he din tell mi. so wait till he gives mi when he is back den i will know. miss dear so much! but cant see him. hais. i'm going mad without him.
tmr having buffet dinner wit some rpws peeps. hope dear can come back earlier. but it will never happen.
5 more days to dear coming back. ):
Friday, October 16 {9:30 pm}
day 7 without dear.
went to school for meeting the nparks people. waiting for quite some time and faci came back saying tat she couldn't find them and tot of having our own meeting instead. but after awhile, they called faci saying that they have reached. so had our meeting and keep asking alot of questions. but the more questions asked, faci came up wit even more challenges for us. we all were like stunned.
after tat, sent wuenyin to yishun mrt den i go home le. happy tat dear called mi when i was packing to go home and i saw his call! so i picked it up. cos i put silent. but i picked it up before he put it down! phew! haha. super delighted to hear his voice. (:
preparing to go eat supper buffet. and i have survived a week without dear. but he's coming back soon!
6 more days to dear coming back. ):
Thursday, October 15 {11:42 pm}
day 6 without dear.
meeting with advisor today. realized tat there are actually still alot of things to do! sians. so decided to complete the more important parts first. so do bit bit den slack liao. brain juice no more le. cant think liao. think liao also got no outputs. hais. tmr meeting with the industry people to discuss what they want in their website. den must think of wat questions to ask them. internet sot again, just got back after waiting about half an hour or so.
back to busy liao. miss dear so much.
7 more days to dear coming back. ):
Wednesday, October 14 {11:52 pm}
day 5 without dear.
really busy wit fyp. tats why so late den blog. and donno why connection at this time so bad. yesterday lidat. today also lidat. den till now den better liao. now discussing with my teammate to do the prototype for our website. which means to do in ppt form, like how our website will be. and we should finish most of them by tmr for advisor to see. tmr will be meeting advisor to discuss.
today lunch wit maoyi and mommy at sembawang shopping centre's MOF. so long never eat at MOF le. so this is a good chance. listening to radio now. they were talking about christmas. yea man. its just 2 months away. time passes really fast. mi and dear have been together for so long! and it will be forever. (:
back to do my fyp le. super lots of things to do. yet not enough time.
8 more days to dear coming back. ):
Tuesday, October 13 {11:16 pm}
day 4 without dear.
shitty internet connection. tats why now den can blog. anyways, this early morning i receive smses and calls from dear. super happy. dear got reception again. den hear his voice awhile den faster put down cos i don't want his phone bill come out very expensive. den just now also got hear his voice awhile and some smses too. just nid a sms a day i happy le. i wan his smses, yet i don't want him to spend so much money on his phone bill. hais. so contradicting. ):
and wat the fuck. i am so tired after one whole day, intending to off my laptop soon after planting finish my seeds in farmville. and my parents went to off the modem after i waited so long for the connection to get back earlier. and i just waited again for the connection to be back. super fucking bad mood when i am so tired and just wanna quickly complete my stuffs before i hurry to sleep.
besides school today, i din go anywhere le. so nothing else to talk about. so go sleep liao.
9 more days to dear coming back. ):
Monday, October 12 {10:44 pm}
day 3 without dear.
went to school today. sat in class not long and dear sent mi sms! superb happy. din bother if faci deducts my grade becos i keep smsing. did not want dear's phone bill to bomb, so after a few smses, i asked him to send mi a good nite sms at night instead. but after not long, he no more reception liao. hais. but at least i know he is safe and sound! and i'm contented even though i wanted more like hearing his voice. :/
wanna apologize to dear today because i'm not a good girl. sorry dear! today's lesson superb busy. only managed to get a drink during first break, and a bun after completing work. and in fact, faci came in late for 3rd meeting. so my whole team hurried down to buy some food and thus getting a bun. if not my stomach super noisy. and i din get to eat till i reached home around 6pm cos of fyp meeting and mommy got chicken wing and fishballs for mi. and these lasted till 9pm's dinner. ):
oh. and. i asked mommy to bring my contact lenses to shop let daddy see why i wear liao feel very uncomfortable. den they threw them away cos daddy says there's alot of proteins, which means dirt. got thick layers of proteins. suggested to get a new pair instead. mommy asks i cry too much tats why lidat. i donno how to answer. might be too much of crying. i tot cry wearing contact lenses can give more moisture den can wear longer. guess crying makes it worse. but i never cry liao okay! so still bit bit guai la hor? (:
tmr would be another day in school. dear please send mi another sms?
10 more days to dear coming back. ):
Sunday, October 11 {11:21 pm}
day 2 without dear.
whole day at home today, except going downstairs to buy mi and dear's favourite waffle. dear in overseas no reception. dunno when den got. hais. keep smsing him lor. but don't expect replies la. today whole day phone no ring. like so weird. so at home sleep, play game, watch tv.
but i'm a good girl today! no tears hor. so dear cannot say baby bo guai. haha. gotta get used to it anyway. cos his job is lidat ma. prepare myself almost every year will be involved in this Bersama Lima? i don't know. he say see luck. if his ship tio, den most likely will be involved. if not, don't have 2 weeks. usual 3day2night. last time he 3day2night i keep complaining. now he 3day2night i used to it liao. but 2weeks! sians. hope he is tinking of mi. bleh. :x
gotta go sleep liao! tmr school!
11 more days to dear coming back. ):
Saturday, October 10 {11:44 pm}
day 1 without dear.
dear is out to sail overseas for 2 weeks due to an exercise called Bersama Lima. sent him to work this morning. i know he is very tired and it really breaks my heart. especially when these 2 weeks i will be staying at home doing nothing but to wait for his call or sms. since 1pm he is already overseas and won't be contacting mi very soon. as what i've promised him, i will blog everyday till he comes back. i got keep smsing him. but i scared tat my smses will disturb him from sleeping.
when i sent him off to work, i also got no mood liao. since then, i got pretty emotional. at times, tears just start flowing unknowingly. started missing him since i haven seen him. a few hours ago, dear still help mi catch insect from toilet. now i go toilet i cant see him. super sad. thinking about the 2 weeks of not seeing him or hearing his voice. a few hours ago, i still can hug hug him. but now. must wait after 2 weeks den can. hais.
hope tat dear can spend more time wit mi after this. *prays really hard*
12 more days to dear coming back. ):
Sunday, October 4 {1:41 pm}
Academic Awards Ceremony 2009
Dear CHAN LI SHAN VANESSA,
You have been awarded the following academic award(s):
- Academic Excellence Award (for being in the top 10% of your diploma and cohort)
a big surprise before the final semester starts. i din expect to get an award and i'm glad tat i got it. i have never gotten an award for studies and i finally getting one soon. so happy. (:
dear is on duty again. but dear's picking mi up after school! yippee! (:
--SheepsRulez(x*`
aboutME*
VANESSA CHAN aka shanshan
16 Nov 1990
van_van1990@hotmail.com
Once a brooksian
Republic Polytechnic
Diploma in Business Computing
loves dear =)
wishes to....
long waiting driving licence at age of 18 drive without P-PLATE! (:
get dear to buy his car!
get my own car before 21 years old!
finish rp asap start working!
save $10k every year
have a great career open my very own car rental company! (:
Sunday, October 25 {10:31 pm}
happy anniversary my dear! (:
since after dear came back, he really accompanied mi for the past few days! really happy. its like. satisfied with the accompaniment to cover back the 2weeks of sailing. and we really make full use of our time keep going out. early morning go out, late night den go home. yesterday night, we even went to east coast park till like 1am. thinking of 1year ago, we were there together attending a bbq and got together. but in fact, can consider tat we are already together. just that we don't know the exact date so we put it as 25th oct lor. funny hor.
dear. thank you for being my dear. thank you for being by my side. thank you for being my other half. dear i love u. (:
Wednesday, October 21 {10:51 pm}
day 12 without dear.
i'm blogging just like 2persons from a drama serial writing their days without their loved one. and my loved one i'm blogging about is dear. feeling really lousy now. no words can express my feelings right now, especially when i don't even know how to express myself. perhaps the way i speak and the words i use are incorrect. so no one is able to understand how i feel because i myself don't even know how to explain it in the right way!
i don't know why i love keeping quiet when i'm down. i don't talk, yet all the thoughts are running through my mind non stop. so when u ask mi to speak up, i don't know how to start and where to start with. i scared when i speak, what i say is totally different from my thoughts. it has always been lidat.
confused. mind in a whirl.
1 more day to seeing dear i hope.
Tuesday, October 20 {11:14 pm}
day 11 without dear.
rushing through codes today. now still redesigning, hoping to make it even more simpler when i code further. thanks to wuenyin for sending mi her team codes. and now BT is trying to explain to mi. really need to thank them for their help! i now trying to get out of a stupid error. sians. tmr early in the morning meet advisor. want to show her the way i code donno can anot. but now it seems like i gotta show her another day.
today only go to school. nothing else besides coding at home.
2 more days to dear coming back! (:
Monday, October 19 {11:11 pm}
day 10 without dear.
wow. its 10days without seeing dear already. and i really miss him! he's coming back soon. real soon. yes. i've been having headaches about my fyp. cant sleep! all i think is dear and fyp. i donno how to continue doing my fyp! whatever faci wants us to do, we all stuck. i nid dear to pei mi and massage my back. den when he busy, he work i help him massage his back. ):
now still working on fyp. din go anywhere today except for school. tmr school too.
3 more days to dear coming back! (:
Sunday, October 18 {11:06 pm}
day 9 without dear.
dear called mi and sent mi a good nite sms just now! superb happy. thought after he left tioman and go back ship, he will not have reception to contact mi. but i really hear his voice just now! just gotta tahan few more days den he will be back le. yippee.
had dinner buffet wit junhao, weishi, cpc, sandra and yanling. so long never meet up with rpws peeps le. so happy to see them again. haha. eat till full full den sent sandra home before i drive go shop.
back to school tmr! sians. i just got a C last week. thanks to the tough rj so i anyhow whack.
4 more days to dear coming back. ):
Saturday, October 17 {11:07 pm}
day 8 without dear.
today go shop cos too bored. so afternoon go shop till close liao den come home. today woke up super late, cos yesterday eat too full cant sleep le. din eat as much as before, stomach bloated very fast. perhaps stomach getting smaller? weighed myself a few days ago. 44kg. my aunt also say i am thinner. donno why.
dear contacted mi the whole of today. he went tioman island walk walk. bought a gift for mi but i donno wats tat cos he din tell mi. so wait till he gives mi when he is back den i will know. miss dear so much! but cant see him. hais. i'm going mad without him.
tmr having buffet dinner wit some rpws peeps. hope dear can come back earlier. but it will never happen.
5 more days to dear coming back. ):
Friday, October 16 {9:30 pm}
day 7 without dear.
went to school for meeting the nparks people. waiting for quite some time and faci came back saying tat she couldn't find them and tot of having our own meeting instead. but after awhile, they called faci saying that they have reached. so had our meeting and keep asking alot of questions. but the more questions asked, faci came up wit even more challenges for us. we all were like stunned.
after tat, sent wuenyin to yishun mrt den i go home le. happy tat dear called mi when i was packing to go home and i saw his call! so i picked it up. cos i put silent. but i picked it up before he put it down! phew! haha. super delighted to hear his voice. (:
preparing to go eat supper buffet. and i have survived a week without dear. but he's coming back soon!
6 more days to dear coming back. ):
Thursday, October 15 {11:42 pm}
day 6 without dear.
meeting with advisor today. realized tat there are actually still alot of things to do! sians. so decided to complete the more important parts first. so do bit bit den slack liao. brain juice no more le. cant think liao. think liao also got no outputs. hais. tmr meeting with the industry people to discuss what they want in their website. den must think of wat questions to ask them. internet sot again, just got back after waiting about half an hour or so.
back to busy liao. miss dear so much.
7 more days to dear coming back. ):
Wednesday, October 14 {11:52 pm}
day 5 without dear.
really busy wit fyp. tats why so late den blog. and donno why connection at this time so bad. yesterday lidat. today also lidat. den till now den better liao. now discussing with my teammate to do the prototype for our website. which means to do in ppt form, like how our website will be. and we should finish most of them by tmr for advisor to see. tmr will be meeting advisor to discuss.
today lunch wit maoyi and mommy at sembawang shopping centre's MOF. so long never eat at MOF le. so this is a good chance. listening to radio now. they were talking about christmas. yea man. its just 2 months away. time passes really fast. mi and dear have been together for so long! and it will be forever. (:
back to do my fyp le. super lots of things to do. yet not enough time.
8 more days to dear coming back. ):
Tuesday, October 13 {11:16 pm}
day 4 without dear.
shitty internet connection. tats why now den can blog. anyways, this early morning i receive smses and calls from dear. super happy. dear got reception again. den hear his voice awhile den faster put down cos i don't want his phone bill come out very expensive. den just now also got hear his voice awhile and some smses too. just nid a sms a day i happy le. i wan his smses, yet i don't want him to spend so much money on his phone bill. hais. so contradicting. ):
and wat the fuck. i am so tired after one whole day, intending to off my laptop soon after planting finish my seeds in farmville. and my parents went to off the modem after i waited so long for the connection to get back earlier. and i just waited again for the connection to be back. super fucking bad mood when i am so tired and just wanna quickly complete my stuffs before i hurry to sleep.
besides school today, i din go anywhere le. so nothing else to talk about. so go sleep liao.
9 more days to dear coming back. ):
Monday, October 12 {10:44 pm}
day 3 without dear.
went to school today. sat in class not long and dear sent mi sms! superb happy. din bother if faci deducts my grade becos i keep smsing. did not want dear's phone bill to bomb, so after a few smses, i asked him to send mi a good nite sms at night instead. but after not long, he no more reception liao. hais. but at least i know he is safe and sound! and i'm contented even though i wanted more like hearing his voice. :/
wanna apologize to dear today because i'm not a good girl. sorry dear! today's lesson superb busy. only managed to get a drink during first break, and a bun after completing work. and in fact, faci came in late for 3rd meeting. so my whole team hurried down to buy some food and thus getting a bun. if not my stomach super noisy. and i din get to eat till i reached home around 6pm cos of fyp meeting and mommy got chicken wing and fishballs for mi. and these lasted till 9pm's dinner. ):
oh. and. i asked mommy to bring my contact lenses to shop let daddy see why i wear liao feel very uncomfortable. den they threw them away cos daddy says there's alot of proteins, which means dirt. got thick layers of proteins. suggested to get a new pair instead. mommy asks i cry too much tats why lidat. i donno how to answer. might be too much of crying. i tot cry wearing contact lenses can give more moisture den can wear longer. guess crying makes it worse. but i never cry liao okay! so still bit bit guai la hor? (:
tmr would be another day in school. dear please send mi another sms?
10 more days to dear coming back. ):
Sunday, October 11 {11:21 pm}
day 2 without dear.
whole day at home today, except going downstairs to buy mi and dear's favourite waffle. dear in overseas no reception. dunno when den got. hais. keep smsing him lor. but don't expect replies la. today whole day phone no ring. like so weird. so at home sleep, play game, watch tv.
but i'm a good girl today! no tears hor. so dear cannot say baby bo guai. haha. gotta get used to it anyway. cos his job is lidat ma. prepare myself almost every year will be involved in this Bersama Lima? i don't know. he say see luck. if his ship tio, den most likely will be involved. if not, don't have 2 weeks. usual 3day2night. last time he 3day2night i keep complaining. now he 3day2night i used to it liao. but 2weeks! sians. hope he is tinking of mi. bleh. :x
gotta go sleep liao! tmr school!
11 more days to dear coming back. ):
Saturday, October 10 {11:44 pm}
day 1 without dear.
dear is out to sail overseas for 2 weeks due to an exercise called Bersama Lima. sent him to work this morning. i know he is very tired and it really breaks my heart. especially when these 2 weeks i will be staying at home doing nothing but to wait for his call or sms. since 1pm he is already overseas and won't be contacting mi very soon. as what i've promised him, i will blog everyday till he comes back. i got keep smsing him. but i scared tat my smses will disturb him from sleeping.
when i sent him off to work, i also got no mood liao. since then, i got pretty emotional. at times, tears just start flowing unknowingly. started missing him since i haven seen him. a few hours ago, dear still help mi catch insect from toilet. now i go toilet i cant see him. super sad. thinking about the 2 weeks of not seeing him or hearing his voice. a few hours ago, i still can hug hug him. but now. must wait after 2 weeks den can. hais.
hope tat dear can spend more time wit mi after this. *prays really hard*
12 more days to dear coming back. ):
Sunday, October 4 {1:41 pm}
Academic Awards Ceremony 2009
Dear CHAN LI SHAN VANESSA,
You have been awarded the following academic award(s):
- Academic Excellence Award (for being in the top 10% of your diploma and cohort)
a big surprise before the final semester starts. i din expect to get an award and i'm glad tat i got it. i have never gotten an award for studies and i finally getting one soon. so happy. (:
dear is on duty again. but dear's picking mi up after school! yippee! (:
--charmmyQUEEN*`
